What Next?

Graduation, jobs, money, getting settled, further studies - these are the words constantly running in my head now that my 4 years of fun and frolic are nearly coming to an end.  As is the case with any student who is about to graduate, I have this mixed emotions building up within me. I don't want to graduate, well the reason is obvious - leaving the comforting and secured shell only to move to a scary, exposed and open world. However I do want to graduate, I want to explore this world, I want to work, be independent and more importantly be successful! :)

            For quite sometime I have been going over what I want to do after I graduate. I thought getting a Masters' Degree would be a supercool idea. I would be still in the study mode and could continue to pull all-nighters and be high on caffeine. But the question was "do I know for sure what I want to be doing?" My mind did not answer this right away. I want to go into advertising, no I want be in PR, well Journalism is always there...and it went on. So I halted, took a deep breath and started the journey of finding the job that I think would suit me and my interests. US has been great to me since it helped me to conveniently change my career path and deviate it to suit my interests. Not all of us know what we want to do with out life and I am proud to say I am one of them. I am proud because it gives me an opportunity to experiment and try new things in life before finally figuring out the right path. It is going to be one long and exciting journey, for sure. Learning new things, making new mistakes, rising up after every mistake and becoming a new and improved person, each time fills me with enthusiasm and excitement to take the next step.

             So, for those of you who are like me, start focusing on finding your passion. Passion is the key to success. For the next 40 years you will be working in the same field and if you are not passionate or interested, then you will be cursing your life and job. So don't let this happen. Choose the right career that interests and then success will follow. 

My take on life

I never thought about life as much as I am thinking about it now. Everything seems more clear to me now that I am old enough to understand what life really is. Sometimes I wonder why things change so much, why can't it just be the same. But of course I know the answer very well. If life were to remain stagnant we would never have learned anything, valued life or valued ourselves. Ever have the feeling that nothing seemed to changed but suddenly everything changed? Well I feel that more often and sometimes I feel happy. I welcome change, because without changes my life would have been boring. 2010 has been the first of those years where changes were infinite and lessons learned were insightful.

               "Life is a camera, face it with a smile", life is an ice-cream, eat it before it melts", life is..blah blah...Life is so many things. For me life is simple. I live in the present. If I get hurt, I cry. If things are going well I smile. I don't want to be strong all the time. Then when everything gets back to normal I feel like life is amazing. My feelings and expressions are not constant. Life changes, I change with it. Every teardrop is necessary and every laughter meaningful. I don't believe that we have to smile and be happy no matter what happens. Its just like speaking out your feelings. Be sad when something bad happens and be happy when something good happens. Nobody's life is perfect, nor are we. We come close to perfection by understanding our life and learning to deal with it better every day. Thats what life is to me.

               

Sometimes its good to be random!

I love to go on Facebook and see everybody's photos because it helps me understand and get to know that person better. What makes them smile, where do they go, how do they dress up, what kind of friends do they hang out with etc. There is a reason why they say "a picture says a 1000 words!"

I love to dream about my future, what kind of house will I be living in , where will I be, what will I be doing, where will I be shopping, what kind of work will I be doing and other such stuff...its fun and completely pointless! I love dreaming because " dreams do come true if we wish hard enough!"

I love to be mysterious because it makes people curious and want to get to know me better. I am mysterious and I will continue to be.

I love to smile because it brings happiness to all including me. It gives me immense joy in seeing others smile. So I assume that if I smile and be happy, everyone else will also feel the same. "Smile is indeed contagious!"

I love to help people around me because it brings happiness to them making them smile in turn making me happy and making me want to smile and spread the happiness.

I love to write because it helps me reveal my thoughts and show the world what I believe in.  "Pen is definitely mightier than the sword! - a Computer is definitely mightier than the sword!"

I love taking pictures because I can go back and see the pictures. I can smile and cherish the moments all over again, it is as good as a time machine! "

I love to do many more things but sometimes its good to stop before it gets too boring! :)

Random Truths

I thought I would share some random truths about myself and life!

I realized that when my hair is all well settled and looks good, my confidence level is high and I feel generally happy and chirpy. Weird, right?

I am sure everyone will agree to this; when I am idle , with nothing to do I get the most horrible and depressing thoughts. "Idle mind is a devil's workshop" is absolutely true. I try to keep myself busy constantly to keep myself happy and cheerful. Experience speaking!

When someone is crazy about me, I don't value them. I get irritated and wonder why they are so sweet to me. When I am crazy about someone, they move farther away from me. I recently realized that!

Its always better to do my own work, rather than being dependent on someone because only I can put my best efforts. Others will do it just for the sake of doing it.

Be careful what you wish for, because wishes do come true not always at the right time!

A smile can definitely change my day and is contagious. Whenever someone smiles at me I feel so happy and I pass on the smile to others.

The weather sometimes defines my mood. Bright, hot sunny days make me lazy, bored and irritated while cloudy, breezy days make me happy, enthusiastic and chirpy!

Many more to come..will update them!! :)

Why Vegetarianism? Why not Vegetarianism?

I was 8 years old and I was walking past a store which sold ‘fresh’ meat. I was curious, so I went in and saw the most horrifying scene that a young child should never be allowed to see. The butcher was chopping away chicken, goats and pigs and the heads of these animals were strewn across the floor. It has been my personal goal ever since to make people around me to understand the importance of being a vegetarian.

Vegetarianism is one of the most common topics to be discussed and debated. Eating meat not only has health risks but also involves cruelty against animals and has environmental hazards. Many religions which promote vegetarianism like Hinduism, Jainism, and Buddhism emphasize that animals have a soul just like humans. Avoidance of killing of animals is one of the main reasons for vegetarian diets.Vegetarian foods are not only healthy but they are delicious. Vegetarianism is encouraged for a variety of reasons. But the most important reason is the health risks caused by eating meat. The American Diabetic Association confirms that vegetarian diets have various health benefits. Vegetarians have been reported to have lower body mass indices than non-vegetarians, and lower rates of death from heart disease; vegetarians also show lower blood cholesterol levels, lower blood pressure and lower rates of hypertension, type 2 diabetes, and prostate and colon cancer.

Vegetarianism not only has heath benefits it can also eliminate world hunger. Meat production has a large negative impact on the underdeveloped countries. Debt–burdened countries are turning over agricultural land to raise cattle and grains for feeding the cattle. According to the Journal of Agricultural and Environmental Ethics, each year in the US approximately ten billion land animals are raised and slaughtered for human consumption. Apart from the pain and torture to animals, meat eating poses environmental risks. If every American skipped one meal of chicken per week and substituted vegetarian foods instead, the carbon dioxide savings would be the same as taking more than a half-million cars off U.S. roads.

Religion has a huge impact on diet. Hinduism among other religions encourages vegetarianism.Vegetarianism is a natural consequence of the principles of ahimsa (doing no harm). Hindus know that by injuring nature’s other creatures we become a source of pain and sorrow. Contrary to the belief that killing plants is like killing animals, the Hinduism Today, justifies that, plants lacking nervous systems, do not endure pain and terror that mortifies animals at slaughter. There is a famous Sanskrit saying which is translated in English: “I am now eating the flesh of an animal that will someday in the future be eating my flesh.” Humans are considered omnivorous since they eat plants as well as animals. But human body is designed to be a vegetarian. Humans with their long digestive tract take between twelve and eighteen hours to process and digest flesh. Because the environment of the digestive tract is warm and moist, the meat rots and creates free radicals – unstable, destructive oxygen atoms that can cause cancer, premature aging and other degenerative conditions. Being a vegetarian is simple and healthy. As George Bernard Shaw aptly says “I do not want to make my stomach a graveyard of dead animals”, the more animals we eat, the more inferior we are. How can we be superior if we copy the lifestyle of animals that are lower to us intellectually and physically? In short, vegetarianism keeps us healthy and guilt free because killing plants is just not the same as killing animals. No wonder we use slaughter to refer to killing animals and not plants.

So why eat animals and suffer when you can be happy and healthy. "Live and let live!"

My Beloved!

Trying my hand at poetry! My first poem and so its very special to me. It was inspired by a guy who keeps coming in my dream, his face is blurred but I can still hear his soft voice! So this poem is dedicated to my dream guy! :)

I looked up at the sky

And saw the sun smiling brightly

With his golden rays spread across the sky.

I felt blessed!

I looked up at the sky

And saw the stars sparkling

Like diamonds spread on black velvet.

I felt rich!

I looked up at the sky

And saw the dark clouds

Blessing me with their holy water.

I felt pure!

I looked up- to see the face of my beloved

And saw his eyes sparkling with love

Smiling brightly at me.

I felt sheer bliss!

I looked around me

And realized that love can do wonders.

I could see the beauty of life through the eyes of my beloved;

I was never a poet but became one for my beloved!

Poetry is written from the heart. Love inspires me. Like I said: I love to love and I love to smile be loved and I love to write!

My name is Khan and I am not a terrorist.

"My name is Khan and I am not a terrorist". Each time Rizvan Khan (SRK) uttered this line I had goosebumps all over my hand. 'My name is Khan' touched me to my very soul and I can easily say that this is of those movies which has a strong message and truly deserves a standing ovation. One of the many lines which stood out in the movie was : "There are only two kinds of people in this world; good people who do good deeds and bad people who do bad deeds." This is absolutely true. Religion is just a part of our identity. We should not allow it to define us nor should we fight for or against it. The message of this movie is that all Muslims are not terrorists and that we should not judge people based on religion. Just because one apple is rotten does not mean that all apples are rotten. There is always a bad person amidst good people. As the saying goes," the sweet is never sweet without the sour." Certain parts of the movie were really silly but I do not want to discuss about the bad parts of a movie, I just want to talk about all the good things about this movie.

Seeing the racial attack after the 9/11 attack, I could imagine how it would have been in reality. 9/11 attack killed thousands of people, the aftermath killed a few more. Another line that stood out was, "If one innocent person dies, the entire humanity has to pay for it." This is extremely true. One bad person takes the lives of innocent people and the whole world is affected by this. Every part of the world was in chaos after this attack and has undoubtedly left a black mark in our hearts. But the attack on Muslims and Sikhs (just because they looked like Muslims) after the big attack is something that was uncalled for. One Muslim guy becomes a murderer and all Muslims are blamed. Why is that? We always choose the easy way out. It is much simpler to blame everyone instead of pointing out one bad guy who actually committed the crime. Isn't that unfair?

This is how I think about it; we (humans) created the concept of religion in order to be organized and to avoid creating chaos in the world. Now, when we should be learning about other religions and following the good things about every religion, we are fighting like cats and dogs in the name of religion which was started in the first place to avoid fighting. Oh, how we love irony!On a lighter note, please do watch the movie, you will cry your heart out and you will enjoy SRK's jokes! :)

Love ...and more!

Love - this 4 letter word has so much power that one cannot imagine unless they have experienced it! I am in love with love! Movies like Sleepless in Seattle, Serendipity, Shall we dance?, The wedding planner and books like A walk to remember, Pride and Prejudice, The notebook among many others just takes me to a whole other world. A world where there is only pure, unadulterated love. Every time I watch Sleepless in Seattle, I just want to go to the Empire State Building on Valentine's Day and wait for my destined 'the one'. When will he sweep me off my feet? (call me cheesy or lame, it doesn't matter!) This is one of my favorite quotes;"we come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly," which is very true. No one is perfect, when we are in love we just ignore all the bad qualities and focus on the good one's. That is true love in my opinion. I also believe in soul mates. I feel that there is someone out there for everyone who are made for each other and just complete each other. I genuinely believe that every single person out there meets their soul mates at least once in a lifetime and if lady luck strikes then they get to be together for a lifetime!

On a whole other note, I always ask myself, why do people have another emotion called hate? When loving is so simple, why do people even try so hard to hate someone? Yes, there are people who have done some bad things, but still why should we hate them? "Good things happen to good people and bad things happen to bad people", so we don't have to bother about hating someone just because they deserve to be hated. Hating takes so much effort and hard work when loving on the other hand is so simple. All you have to do is smile and talk politely with everyone. Instead of treating one person differently because you hate that person, it is just so much easier to treat everyone in a similar manner. Doesn't that seem simple enough? So next time you decide someone deserves to be hated, just focus on his/her good qualities and show some love and you will see the person transform magically. Love is definitely more powerful than hate. Experience speaking! ;)

Life is one big complication. Is it really that complicated?

I always wonder, about how my life would be if things wouldn't have happened the way it happened. Does everything happen for a reason or for the best? Certain questions are answered when you think deeply. The answers have always been there, but we always look far away thinking that everything is complicated. Life is complicated because we think it is. At some point in life we will realize that our life has never been complicated. It is only because of the preconceived notions that it seems to us that our life is one complicated maze. But that is not the truth. Ask yourself and you will know how easy life is.

Bangalore and Los Angeles have so many things in common. These cities are happening, trendy and growing at a fast pace. More importantly , they offer diversity. Nothing is as exciting as meeting new people. Their culture, their identity , their beliefs , their roots intrigue me . While Bangalore invites people from different parts of India, LA attracts people from across the country as well as from all over the world. Bangalore holds a special place in my heart because it is the place where I grew up, made my first set of friends, learned to ride a cycle, learned to ride a moped. Then I came to LA leaving behind all my memories behind only to create new ones (oh, I keep the old ones too! Precious as they are!). LA taught me many things, the most important lesson is to be independent and not to get too attached to people. Another important thing that I learnt was , if you follow your passion you can achieve great wonders (well, I followed my passion and I became a whole new person!). Meeting people from countries that I never knew existed, hearing different languages , growing more attached to India, excited about spotting an Indian on the road are some things that you see in LA (well America). Contrary to the popular perception of America being a paradise on earth, it is actually a place where you have to first go through a series of obstacles to actually make it a paradise. After you have lived a year maybe, you will understand the true feeling of what it means to be in America. People in India see only the good things about America and people who are in America see only the bad things about India. Both these countries are unique in their own way and that's what makes them so special. Of course nothing is perfect, so you cannot expect to be in heaven when you are in America nor should you think that being in India is hell (or even the other way round!). The most important thing to keep in mind is that any place in this world can be paradise. It is all in our head. No country is special. We have to make it special. We learn certain things when we live far away from our home, that is when we realize the importance of our home. No wonder they say " Absence makes the heart grow fonder". Now that I am 1000's of miles away from my dear country, I realize how much I love my country, my home where I spent a good part of my life. Coming to America was the best decision ever since it has changed me into a better person. Yes, everything happens for a reason and for the best! And yes, I did realize that life is not complicated at all and I love it.

Facebook Fever!

I had to write about Facebook for obvious reasons! Facebook - oh my! It is more addictive than drugs (not that I have tried drugs! )What is about these social networking sites that gets everybody glued to their laptops? Well, for one they are fun (duh?!!), and you get to be a totally different person! It is so addictive that I talk to my roommates who are sitting in front of me through Facebook(yeah! come on, you do it too! ) .What has happened to the good old face-to-face talk? Well its more faceBOOK - to - faceBOOK talk. Facebook and other networking sites help people find their old friends, meet new people, it even works like a online dating site (oh ya! I havn't tried that one yet, nor do I intend to!). I personally feel that it is a wonderful invention, because it allows me to keep in touch with old friends who are too far to meet or who live in a totally different part of the world. And the best part is I can choose to ignore people who get annoying without telling them. (Ah, I have not done that either, but that is a nice option!). I get to show off my pictures, update everybody on my list on what I am thinking/doing (I am a very important person, you see!), get to know the upcoming events and even stalk people (I am sure everybody has done that!) or even just learn about the other person (to be polite). But of course everything has a bad side to it. These sites make people anti-social. People will soon forget how to communicate when they meet a person. The style of speaking changes drastically. Using LOL even when you do not feel like smiling let alone laughing. When I was talking to a friend, I realized that my fingers were 'typing' in the air! Whenever I make a slick comment my mind automatically visualizes the ':P' smiley. I even ended up using 'u', 'r', 'tat', 'skool' and other similar messaging language on my exams. I did correct it though! Well the point of all this is that FACEBOOK rocks! Of course there are disadvantages, but who cares. Oh! btw [by the way ;)] I promote my blogs through these networking sites, so I am totally in favor of them! Ok, I need to update my status on FB now!

Randomly Random!!

Ah...finally I am back in the blogging world after a span of what..? 3 months? 4 months? whatever!!!

I just love going to the beach to watch the sunset. It soothes me down and I feel my tensions and stress ebbing away! I feel like there is nothing is this world not even me. I just get lost into nothing!

I always wonder about my future. The future is such a distant cloud ...blurry and far far away ! I don't know what to expect. What will my future be like? But all I know is I want to do something worthwhile like helping people out in everything. It maybe like counseling or just helping them find a job or just console them when they are facing difficult times. Moral support is something everybody needs. Money is not all that important. People may be loaded with cash but when it comes to support its zero, nix ! Bam!! That is where it hurts the most!Money definitely cannot buy happiness and even if it can get the happiness it is only short-lived. People need to open themselves to people whom they trust or maybe strangers (as in doctors, counselors) so that they may avoid feeling conscious. It is amazing how these therapies, psychiatrists and counselors have increased and that people do go to them. One way of feeling better is to write your thoughts and feelings in a diary or being in a computer-oriented world maybe in a word document in your laptop! I stick to the old-fashioned diary writing. It fills me with excitement to read what I have written and I get to know when I have changed and in which ways I have changed. It broadens my perspectives and allows me to rectify myself . There are numerous advantages in keeping a diary and it is for those people who prefer to keep their feeling to themselves rather than go to the counselors . I want to prevent the number of suicides committed. Personally I feel that people who commit suicides are not cowards , they are just not used to facing the truth and that it would really help them to keep a diary, if they feel that it is embarrassing to tell others. I want to spread this and want people to come in contact with themselves and not fear for others. I want to decrease the percentage of suicides and want to help decrease the crime rate which is yet another story!

Ah! the flakiness of our beloved English language!!!!

I Just received this forward, and I thought I might share this with you all. This is the most hilarious poem I have ever read! You should read it to get a few laughs! It is always contested that English language is weird and downright meaningless and yet it is the most common and universally accepted language. There is something about this language which pulls attention towards itself . It may be insane , it may be wacky but it still is the most desired and most happening language in the world! So lets read this crazy poem about the equally crazy yet august language! :)

There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger;

neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France.

Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads,

which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted.

But if we explore its paradoxes,

we find that quicksand is not quick but can work slowly,

boxing rings are not round but square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,

grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?

If the plural of tooth is teeth,

why isn't the plural of booth, beeth?

One goose, 2 geese. So one moose,2 meese?

One index, 2 indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend?

If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them,

then what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be

committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?

Ship by truck and send cargo by ship?

Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,

while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy

of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down,

in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which,

an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people,

not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course,

is not a race at all.

That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible,

but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

-Anonymous

The most shocking Pictures!

Please save animals from being killed in the most gruesome way just to make goods for the sake of some ridiculous looking products!











The most shocking pictures I have ever seen! I was never a fan of leather goods because I did not like the look of it. But now I am totally against leather goods. I cannot imagine how a person can be so insensitive and so sickeningly cruel. I am not a big fan of animals , but that does not mean that I will kill all animals so that I can have what I want ! Among all animals , I like snakes. Seeing these pictures made me want to kill myself for being a human. It is a shame what people will do for money and looks. I cannot see how people can be paid for slaughtering animals callously. Don't animals have as much right as we do? Don't they deserve to be treated with respect? I am extremely glad that I am a vegetarian. I am appealing to people to check these pictures out and stop using leather goods. They are many other materials that look good on you! Please do not encourage the slaying of innocent animals just because they are overpowered and cannot speak out. Let's not put mankind to shame by being barbarous. It is bad enough that humans kill humans. So please do what you can to save these animals who are being killed in such a disgusting fashion!

Confessions of a Shopaholic!!

It is a wonder that I haven't talked about my interest (or rather obsession) - SHOPPING!! I LOVE shopping! My record till date is 8 hours nonstop shopping (Thanksgiving '08). I can never forget that! WOW!! That was one helluva day!! I mean I literally "shopped till I dropped". I could no longer stand , that is when I had to stop!!! Shopping is my passion.All my worries and stress just melts away when I go shopping. I know it is kind of an expensive way to relieve stress, but whatever works!! :) I know it is not good to be a shopaholic, but I can't help it, I am so good at it! I feel like I am in cloud 9 when I am shopping. Once I see something that I like ,I HAVE to get it, else I will have a series of nightmares till I get my hands on my target. I agree that this is the worst part of being a shopaholic. But now I am a little better. I try not to be too obsessive and think more about how much I am spending. Still I consider that shopping is one of my best talents. It isn't easy. Most people get tired or bored soon or they are very bad at choosing or they just don't like shopping. But me , I am full of enthusiasm when it comes to shopping. I am an expert at choosing the best among the rest! Oh, I know I sound boastful and pathetic, but this is the only area where I am very very confident and feel very comfortable!So the next time you are bored or need help with shopping , you can always count on me to help you out!! (The Shopping expert, if I may say so myself!! :D)

Procrastination

"Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday! " - Don Marquis

Well at least it is a polite way of saying "You are plain lazy! " I am so good at procrastination that I have become immune to the nagging voice in my head .

"Nothing is so fatiguing that the eternal hanging of an uncompleted task! " -William James

I really agree with this. I feel so frustrated to keep pushing things. I have tried so hard to stop being such a lazy bug, but everyday the procrastination disease gets more and more serious. Like, I have a Math midterm on Friday and I have been thinking about studying for it since 3 weeks. now I have a week left and am still pushing it. I wasted a whole day (but enjoyed it! :) )and I feel so guilty. I have become sickeningly good at convincing myself that I have plenty of time, when I really know that I don't. It is sad that I am so easily distracted which makes it harder for me to study even for hour!

"Procrastination is opportunity's assassin. " ~Victor Kiam

I bet! No one can understand that better than me.


"Procrastination is the thief of time." -Edward Young

Oh I know! :(

I wish there was some kind of a doctor or a procrastination specialist who would prescribe some pills which can avoid humans from procrastinating! Wouldn't that be just lovely?
Well dreaming certainly doesn't help it , so all we have to do is have a firm mind and just overrule our mind when it tries to convince us that tomorrow is the best time to do it.

"Tomorrow is the only day in the year that appeals to a lazy man. " -Jimmy Lyons

Yes, and I don't want to be a lazy person. Starting now, I am going to stop being a jerk and go back to being a nerd (well not completely. I want to be outgoing and not be too bookish ,so I can't sit inside and study all the time. Not that I will ! ) , I mean start pushing off stuff. So, I am going to publish this and get back to Math! :)

A tribute to Shakespeare

Sonnet 116

Let me not to the marriage of true mindsAdmit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove;
O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken,Love's not Time's fool , though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come; Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, But bears it out even to the edge of doom.If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
-William Shakespeare





I came across this sonnet in my 12th grade textbook. I remember this poem vividly because this truly captured my heart. William Shakespeare is undoubtedly THE best poet ever! His style and his absolute truth made me love him more than ever. He is my second role model (well first being my dad).

Bucket list!

Today I took a quiz in Facebook (When are you going to die?) because I was so bored and also because I was a little curious! lol!! Well to prove how dumb it was , it showed that I was going to die on October 10th 2008 and told me that I just had a moment!! ha ha!! Apparently the test was outdated besides being dumb!

The thing is when I took this test I started thinking what if the doctor or some reliable source had told me I had a month or maybe 6 months to live, what would I do?

1)I would want to get married with the guy I love the most and that guy should love me too! (I am not saying this would happen in the span of 6 months or that I want the guy to waste his life by marrying me when he knows that I would die). All I want is to die happily, knowing that I was loved, just a wish . I do not expect it to come true.

2)I want to make my family understand that me dying is not that bad and that they should not suffer in sorrow nor should they let my absence consume them (because I know they are very very attached to me and so am I , so I do not want to hurt them when I am leaving this world). This will be my last wish!

3)I want to have a "going away" party! I want to meet everyone I love before I leave and besides I do not want my death to be a sad thing and I do not want people to be gloomy!

4)I want to dance in the rain. I have never danced in the rain and I am a little conscious what people might think. If I am gonna die I don't care what anyone might think!

5)I want to see Europe especially London , Paris and France. I have this desire to see these places from a long long time! I would also love to go to Egypt to see the pyramids.

6)I want to go to the beach and watch the sunset and the ocean, alone so that I can cry . (If I have very less time to live , I will be very upset so I would definitely cry, to remove the pain out my system . I like to cry when I am alone ).

7)I want to plant a Jasmine tree in my garden (in Bangalore, India) and call it "Deepthi" . I do not know why , but I just want to do it! :)

8)I want to go to Banaras , pray and bring the Ganges water back to Banglore, India . ( I want to purify myself . I have heard going to Banaras and once in your a lifetime will purify your soul so that you can go to heaven !)

9)I want to write my feelings and everything that happened to me till I die and then give them to my parents to read ! (I don't want them to be in the dark , I want them to know about their daughter as much as I can tell them! )

10)I want to own a Louis Vuitton handbag . I love LV!

My first Blog!

Weeee!! this is my first blog ...excited? Yesssssss!! To be honest I have no idea what I am supposed to write..(well people are so into blogging these days ..I thought maybe I should give it a try!) I am a very private person. I write my thoughts in my diary! But then I thought - "Why not give people access into my little mind!! eh??" , so here I am sitting in my University library on a bright Friday morning plunging into the world of blogging!

Before I start blabbering , let me introduce myself properly :

Name : Deepthi Cauligi
Nickname: Dee, Deep, Depp, Dodo(don't even ask!!! ), Deeps, Deepu
Age:hmm..maybe I should keep some stuff private!
Interests: Fashion , Writing and Reading.


I think that's enough of background about me! (Well I am bit lazy right now to write everything..besides it would take me pages and pages to write about me! :P)

I am an Indian and love being one! Jai Ho!!! :D
I am currently living in America and I love US but India will always be my home and heaven!! :)

It is amazing how a person can change as they grow up - take me for instance , I used to hate sports and physical activity till high school..but now I love exercising, doing any kind of physical activity.
I always wanted to be alone, but now , I want to be surrounded with people. You get the idea right?!

I have this weird or rather unique habit of naming my favorite inanimate objects!
My two wheeler was (Yea I had to sell it when I moved to America! :( ) named Dorinda ("A beautiful gift")
My laptop is called Danita ("God's gift") .
My ipod is named Dorri("Gift")

Well these are all my favorite objects and I love them so much!!

Don't get me wrong , I love people a lot too!! ha ha!

I have always wanted to become
1 --> Journalist
2--> Fashion Designer
3--> Archeologist

Well all I can say I am on the way to be one of these! I am so excited about it!!(I am not gonna give everything away!)
One more thing to note is that I use a lot of exclamations because I feel that they add excitement !!

I love suspense. To me my life is a big suspense, I wait eagerly everyday to see how my days folds! Each day is like watching a thriller - you never know what happens next ! I am trying to be positive these days! Yup ..I have a pessimistic edge!!

Well let me wrap up..'coz I think you would just get bored if I go on writing ceaselessly, besides this was just a sample!