I hate good-byes

"Why cant we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos." - Snoopy

Two of the best years of my life is came to an end and once again everything changed. Living in an apartment close to my college with two wonderful girls had been the best years of my life Through them I got to make new friends who will remain my life-long buddies. My life has changed again. Sometimes I wonder why things change so much; why can’t it just stay the same? But of course I know the answer very well. If life were to remain stagnant we would have never learned anything, never valued life and never valued ourselves. 

All the wonderful memories, the fun-times, the trips, night-outs and the gossips sessions can never be forgotten. When I look back I feel I have truly grown-up and evolved as an adult with a better personality and character. 


After that I left my student life to join the professional world. I have opened another book full of new memories with the old ones still fresh in my mind. 


2011 has been yet another year filled with surprises, sadness, moments of joy and ended with my wishes  coming true! Here's wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Was 2011 your year?

Passion, Dreams & Desires

Somebody pinch me, am I really a working-girl now?

I have heard that working is tedious and that you will start craving for weekends. But so far, I have loved working. Except for getting up early, I absolutely love going to work, putting my brain to work and of course being appreciated by my boss for my work.

I have just started at the bottom-most rung of the career ladder. I have a long way to go. However, I feel that every experience is taking me closer to my goal. Somedays, I feel that I'm worthless working hard for nothing. However, those are the days when I have spoken to people who do not understand the importance of passion and only give importance to money.

I encourage everyone to follow their passion no matter what others say. There will be some people who will continue to discourage you. But stand your ground. Follow your dreams and desires. I am speaking from experience!

"Passion is energy. Feel the power that comes from  focusing on what excites you." - Oprah Winfrey


I am now understanding the importance of following my passion. If I hadn't followed my passion and just followed the advice I got from most people, I would have cursed myself every single day. I see people around me complaining about work and how they don't connect to what they are doing. I just wish they had followed their dreams so they wouldn't be in a position to complain.

Everyone has dreams, but only a few can make their dreams come true. I am one of them. This is because passion has a key role in making these dreams come true. Once you realize your passions, it's just a matter of time before your dreams come true.

Remember, "Nothing great in this world has ever been accomplished without passion!"

Stressed out!

Career, jobs, resumes, cover letters, interviews and money- these are the only things running in my head. Finding a job and gaining experience has consumed me to the extent that I have forgotten what it is to be care-free and without worries.

But this not right. Life is not just about jobs and money, its about enjoying while you are young and alive. Its about exploring, making mistakes, falling down only to rise and learn from these mistakes. Don't you think?

Dreams do come true!

"Dad, when I grow up I want to be a Journalist. I want to write stories and interview people."

I was in 8th grade. I had aced my English exam and was praised for my essays which proved that I was good at writing. I was suddenly eager to grow up and become a Journalist. I wanted to interview people and write stories. Little did I know that this was not just a dream, it was a passion. Writing has always helped me get out my emotions. Whenever I am sad, happy, angry or upset and frustrated, I write. I write furiously, I write to get all the emotions out of my system, I write so that one day when I read those pages I will remember exactly how I felt and what I was thinking at that time.

"Dear Diary (25/11/2004)
I am extremely happy today. I was awarded the 'Outstanding Student of the Award......" and so it went on.

Every emotion and every moment is captured in my diaries. Yes, since 4th grade I have got into a habit of writing in my diary. I love writing. It is my passion. I wrote few stories and continued writing in my diary. However as I grew up, I became practical and thought about my career as something that needs to be stable and which helps me get a fat paycheck at the end of each month. I forgot about my dream to be a Journalist.

2011 brought me happiness because my dream came true. I am a Journalist and I have my own column. I interview people and write what I want.

Yes dreams do come true.

I work at a newspaper called Campus Circle. My first article was published on 26th January 2011 and my column is named 'The Greener side' .

Check it out -->
http://www.campuscircle.com/review.cfm?c=Blogs&sc=The%20Greener%20Side

What Next?

Graduation, jobs, money, getting settled, further studies - these are the words constantly running in my head now that my 4 years of fun and frolic are nearly coming to an end.  As is the case with any student who is about to graduate, I have this mixed emotions building up within me. I don't want to graduate, well the reason is obvious - leaving the comforting and secured shell only to move to a scary, exposed and open world. However I do want to graduate, I want to explore this world, I want to work, be independent and more importantly be successful! :)

            For quite sometime I have been going over what I want to do after I graduate. I thought getting a Masters' Degree would be a supercool idea. I would be still in the study mode and could continue to pull all-nighters and be high on caffeine. But the question was "do I know for sure what I want to be doing?" My mind did not answer this right away. I want to go into advertising, no I want be in PR, well Journalism is always there...and it went on. So I halted, took a deep breath and started the journey of finding the job that I think would suit me and my interests. US has been great to me since it helped me to conveniently change my career path and deviate it to suit my interests. Not all of us know what we want to do with out life and I am proud to say I am one of them. I am proud because it gives me an opportunity to experiment and try new things in life before finally figuring out the right path. It is going to be one long and exciting journey, for sure. Learning new things, making new mistakes, rising up after every mistake and becoming a new and improved person, each time fills me with enthusiasm and excitement to take the next step.

             So, for those of you who are like me, start focusing on finding your passion. Passion is the key to success. For the next 40 years you will be working in the same field and if you are not passionate or interested, then you will be cursing your life and job. So don't let this happen. Choose the right career that interests and then success will follow. 

Sometimes its good to be random!

I love to go on Facebook and see everybody's photos because it helps me understand and get to know that person better. What makes them smile, where do they go, how do they dress up, what kind of friends do they hang out with etc. There is a reason why they say "a picture says a 1000 words!"

I love to dream about my future, what kind of house will I be living in , where will I be, what will I be doing, where will I be shopping, what kind of work will I be doing and other such stuff...its fun and completely pointless! I love dreaming because " dreams do come true if we wish hard enough!"

I love to be mysterious because it makes people curious and want to get to know me better. I am mysterious and I will continue to be.

I love to smile because it brings happiness to all including me. It gives me immense joy in seeing others smile. So I assume that if I smile and be happy, everyone else will also feel the same. "Smile is indeed contagious!"

I love to help people around me because it brings happiness to them making them smile in turn making me happy and making me want to smile and spread the happiness.

I love to write because it helps me reveal my thoughts and show the world what I believe in.  "Pen is definitely mightier than the sword! - a Computer is definitely mightier than the sword!"

I love taking pictures because I can go back and see the pictures. I can smile and cherish the moments all over again, it is as good as a time machine! "

I love to do many more things but sometimes its good to stop before it gets too boring! :)

Random Truths

I thought I would share some random truths about myself and life!

I realized that when my hair is all well settled and looks good, my confidence level is high and I feel generally happy and chirpy. Weird, right?

I am sure everyone will agree to this; when I am idle , with nothing to do I get the most horrible and depressing thoughts. "Idle mind is a devil's workshop" is absolutely true. I try to keep myself busy constantly to keep myself happy and cheerful. Experience speaking!

When someone is crazy about me, I don't value them. I get irritated and wonder why they are so sweet to me. When I am crazy about someone, they move farther away from me. I recently realized that!

Its always better to do my own work, rather than being dependent on someone because only I can put my best efforts. Others will do it just for the sake of doing it.

Be careful what you wish for, because wishes do come true not always at the right time!

A smile can definitely change my day and is contagious. Whenever someone smiles at me I feel so happy and I pass on the smile to others.

The weather sometimes defines my mood. Bright, hot sunny days make me lazy, bored and irritated while cloudy, breezy days make me happy, enthusiastic and chirpy!

Many more to come..will update them!! :)

My Beloved!

Trying my hand at poetry! My first poem and so its very special to me. It was inspired by a guy who keeps coming in my dream, his face is blurred but I can still hear his soft voice! So this poem is dedicated to my dream guy! :)

I looked up at the sky

And saw the sun smiling brightly

With his golden rays spread across the sky.

I felt blessed!

I looked up at the sky

And saw the stars sparkling

Like diamonds spread on black velvet.

I felt rich!

I looked up at the sky

And saw the dark clouds

Blessing me with their holy water.

I felt pure!

I looked up- to see the face of my beloved

And saw his eyes sparkling with love

Smiling brightly at me.

I felt sheer bliss!

I looked around me

And realized that love can do wonders.

I could see the beauty of life through the eyes of my beloved;

I was never a poet but became one for my beloved!

Poetry is written from the heart. Love inspires me. Like I said: I love to love and I love to smile be loved and I love to write!

Life is one big complication. Is it really that complicated?

I always wonder, about how my life would be if things wouldn't have happened the way it happened. Does everything happen for a reason or for the best? Certain questions are answered when you think deeply. The answers have always been there, but we always look far away thinking that everything is complicated. Life is complicated because we think it is. At some point in life we will realize that our life has never been complicated. It is only because of the preconceived notions that it seems to us that our life is one complicated maze. But that is not the truth. Ask yourself and you will know how easy life is.

Bangalore and Los Angeles have so many things in common. These cities are happening, trendy and growing at a fast pace. More importantly , they offer diversity. Nothing is as exciting as meeting new people. Their culture, their identity , their beliefs , their roots intrigue me . While Bangalore invites people from different parts of India, LA attracts people from across the country as well as from all over the world. Bangalore holds a special place in my heart because it is the place where I grew up, made my first set of friends, learned to ride a cycle, learned to ride a moped. Then I came to LA leaving behind all my memories behind only to create new ones (oh, I keep the old ones too! Precious as they are!). LA taught me many things, the most important lesson is to be independent and not to get too attached to people. Another important thing that I learnt was , if you follow your passion you can achieve great wonders (well, I followed my passion and I became a whole new person!). Meeting people from countries that I never knew existed, hearing different languages , growing more attached to India, excited about spotting an Indian on the road are some things that you see in LA (well America). Contrary to the popular perception of America being a paradise on earth, it is actually a place where you have to first go through a series of obstacles to actually make it a paradise. After you have lived a year maybe, you will understand the true feeling of what it means to be in America. People in India see only the good things about America and people who are in America see only the bad things about India. Both these countries are unique in their own way and that's what makes them so special. Of course nothing is perfect, so you cannot expect to be in heaven when you are in America nor should you think that being in India is hell (or even the other way round!). The most important thing to keep in mind is that any place in this world can be paradise. It is all in our head. No country is special. We have to make it special. We learn certain things when we live far away from our home, that is when we realize the importance of our home. No wonder they say " Absence makes the heart grow fonder". Now that I am 1000's of miles away from my dear country, I realize how much I love my country, my home where I spent a good part of my life. Coming to America was the best decision ever since it has changed me into a better person. Yes, everything happens for a reason and for the best! And yes, I did realize that life is not complicated at all and I love it.

Randomly Random!!

Ah...finally I am back in the blogging world after a span of what..? 3 months? 4 months? whatever!!!

I just love going to the beach to watch the sunset. It soothes me down and I feel my tensions and stress ebbing away! I feel like there is nothing is this world not even me. I just get lost into nothing!

I always wonder about my future. The future is such a distant cloud ...blurry and far far away ! I don't know what to expect. What will my future be like? But all I know is I want to do something worthwhile like helping people out in everything. It maybe like counseling or just helping them find a job or just console them when they are facing difficult times. Moral support is something everybody needs. Money is not all that important. People may be loaded with cash but when it comes to support its zero, nix ! Bam!! That is where it hurts the most!Money definitely cannot buy happiness and even if it can get the happiness it is only short-lived. People need to open themselves to people whom they trust or maybe strangers (as in doctors, counselors) so that they may avoid feeling conscious. It is amazing how these therapies, psychiatrists and counselors have increased and that people do go to them. One way of feeling better is to write your thoughts and feelings in a diary or being in a computer-oriented world maybe in a word document in your laptop! I stick to the old-fashioned diary writing. It fills me with excitement to read what I have written and I get to know when I have changed and in which ways I have changed. It broadens my perspectives and allows me to rectify myself . There are numerous advantages in keeping a diary and it is for those people who prefer to keep their feeling to themselves rather than go to the counselors . I want to prevent the number of suicides committed. Personally I feel that people who commit suicides are not cowards , they are just not used to facing the truth and that it would really help them to keep a diary, if they feel that it is embarrassing to tell others. I want to spread this and want people to come in contact with themselves and not fear for others. I want to decrease the percentage of suicides and want to help decrease the crime rate which is yet another story!

Confessions of a Shopaholic!!

It is a wonder that I haven't talked about my interest (or rather obsession) - SHOPPING!! I LOVE shopping! My record till date is 8 hours nonstop shopping (Thanksgiving '08). I can never forget that! WOW!! That was one helluva day!! I mean I literally "shopped till I dropped". I could no longer stand , that is when I had to stop!!! Shopping is my passion.All my worries and stress just melts away when I go shopping. I know it is kind of an expensive way to relieve stress, but whatever works!! :) I know it is not good to be a shopaholic, but I can't help it, I am so good at it! I feel like I am in cloud 9 when I am shopping. Once I see something that I like ,I HAVE to get it, else I will have a series of nightmares till I get my hands on my target. I agree that this is the worst part of being a shopaholic. But now I am a little better. I try not to be too obsessive and think more about how much I am spending. Still I consider that shopping is one of my best talents. It isn't easy. Most people get tired or bored soon or they are very bad at choosing or they just don't like shopping. But me , I am full of enthusiasm when it comes to shopping. I am an expert at choosing the best among the rest! Oh, I know I sound boastful and pathetic, but this is the only area where I am very very confident and feel very comfortable!So the next time you are bored or need help with shopping , you can always count on me to help you out!! (The Shopping expert, if I may say so myself!! :D)

Procrastination

"Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday! " - Don Marquis

Well at least it is a polite way of saying "You are plain lazy! " I am so good at procrastination that I have become immune to the nagging voice in my head .

"Nothing is so fatiguing that the eternal hanging of an uncompleted task! " -William James

I really agree with this. I feel so frustrated to keep pushing things. I have tried so hard to stop being such a lazy bug, but everyday the procrastination disease gets more and more serious. Like, I have a Math midterm on Friday and I have been thinking about studying for it since 3 weeks. now I have a week left and am still pushing it. I wasted a whole day (but enjoyed it! :) )and I feel so guilty. I have become sickeningly good at convincing myself that I have plenty of time, when I really know that I don't. It is sad that I am so easily distracted which makes it harder for me to study even for hour!

"Procrastination is opportunity's assassin. " ~Victor Kiam

I bet! No one can understand that better than me.


"Procrastination is the thief of time." -Edward Young

Oh I know! :(

I wish there was some kind of a doctor or a procrastination specialist who would prescribe some pills which can avoid humans from procrastinating! Wouldn't that be just lovely?
Well dreaming certainly doesn't help it , so all we have to do is have a firm mind and just overrule our mind when it tries to convince us that tomorrow is the best time to do it.

"Tomorrow is the only day in the year that appeals to a lazy man. " -Jimmy Lyons

Yes, and I don't want to be a lazy person. Starting now, I am going to stop being a jerk and go back to being a nerd (well not completely. I want to be outgoing and not be too bookish ,so I can't sit inside and study all the time. Not that I will ! ) , I mean start pushing off stuff. So, I am going to publish this and get back to Math! :)

Bucket list!

Today I took a quiz in Facebook (When are you going to die?) because I was so bored and also because I was a little curious! lol!! Well to prove how dumb it was , it showed that I was going to die on October 10th 2008 and told me that I just had a moment!! ha ha!! Apparently the test was outdated besides being dumb!

The thing is when I took this test I started thinking what if the doctor or some reliable source had told me I had a month or maybe 6 months to live, what would I do?

1)I would want to get married with the guy I love the most and that guy should love me too! (I am not saying this would happen in the span of 6 months or that I want the guy to waste his life by marrying me when he knows that I would die). All I want is to die happily, knowing that I was loved, just a wish . I do not expect it to come true.

2)I want to make my family understand that me dying is not that bad and that they should not suffer in sorrow nor should they let my absence consume them (because I know they are very very attached to me and so am I , so I do not want to hurt them when I am leaving this world). This will be my last wish!

3)I want to have a "going away" party! I want to meet everyone I love before I leave and besides I do not want my death to be a sad thing and I do not want people to be gloomy!

4)I want to dance in the rain. I have never danced in the rain and I am a little conscious what people might think. If I am gonna die I don't care what anyone might think!

5)I want to see Europe especially London , Paris and France. I have this desire to see these places from a long long time! I would also love to go to Egypt to see the pyramids.

6)I want to go to the beach and watch the sunset and the ocean, alone so that I can cry . (If I have very less time to live , I will be very upset so I would definitely cry, to remove the pain out my system . I like to cry when I am alone ).

7)I want to plant a Jasmine tree in my garden (in Bangalore, India) and call it "Deepthi" . I do not know why , but I just want to do it! :)

8)I want to go to Banaras , pray and bring the Ganges water back to Banglore, India . ( I want to purify myself . I have heard going to Banaras and once in your a lifetime will purify your soul so that you can go to heaven !)

9)I want to write my feelings and everything that happened to me till I die and then give them to my parents to read ! (I don't want them to be in the dark , I want them to know about their daughter as much as I can tell them! )

10)I want to own a Louis Vuitton handbag . I love LV!

My first Blog!

Weeee!! this is my first blog ...excited? Yesssssss!! To be honest I have no idea what I am supposed to write..(well people are so into blogging these days ..I thought maybe I should give it a try!) I am a very private person. I write my thoughts in my diary! But then I thought - "Why not give people access into my little mind!! eh??" , so here I am sitting in my University library on a bright Friday morning plunging into the world of blogging!

Before I start blabbering , let me introduce myself properly :

Name : Deepthi Cauligi
Nickname: Dee, Deep, Depp, Dodo(don't even ask!!! ), Deeps, Deepu
Age:hmm..maybe I should keep some stuff private!
Interests: Fashion , Writing and Reading.


I think that's enough of background about me! (Well I am bit lazy right now to write everything..besides it would take me pages and pages to write about me! :P)

I am an Indian and love being one! Jai Ho!!! :D
I am currently living in America and I love US but India will always be my home and heaven!! :)

It is amazing how a person can change as they grow up - take me for instance , I used to hate sports and physical activity till high school..but now I love exercising, doing any kind of physical activity.
I always wanted to be alone, but now , I want to be surrounded with people. You get the idea right?!

I have this weird or rather unique habit of naming my favorite inanimate objects!
My two wheeler was (Yea I had to sell it when I moved to America! :( ) named Dorinda ("A beautiful gift")
My laptop is called Danita ("God's gift") .
My ipod is named Dorri("Gift")

Well these are all my favorite objects and I love them so much!!

Don't get me wrong , I love people a lot too!! ha ha!

I have always wanted to become
1 --> Journalist
2--> Fashion Designer
3--> Archeologist

Well all I can say I am on the way to be one of these! I am so excited about it!!(I am not gonna give everything away!)
One more thing to note is that I use a lot of exclamations because I feel that they add excitement !!

I love suspense. To me my life is a big suspense, I wait eagerly everyday to see how my days folds! Each day is like watching a thriller - you never know what happens next ! I am trying to be positive these days! Yup ..I have a pessimistic edge!!

Well let me wrap up..'coz I think you would just get bored if I go on writing ceaselessly, besides this was just a sample!